BLISS was born from the growing pains of childhood and youth, building a core of wellness over many years, and finally into the ability to attain that elusive spark of Bliss. It is my passion to share these fruits, ancient and modern, that still deliver great results. I really hope that you will learn and use my grass-roots Naturopathy to heal yourself – and you’ll go way beyond where I am now.
How the story began…
The story began half a century ago in the mid 1900s. Mummy, Daddy, family and friends were delighted with Little Gay, (my nickname) – a pretty, healthy looking child, dancing, singing and baking cakes. They had no idea that inside that sweet exterior I was trapped in a little girl’s hell. I struggled to be and do good; living was sheer will-power. Why were things set up this way? why pain and suffering? Painstakingly I had to learn how to transform hell into heaven through using my own intelligence and facing fear and pain.
Now I love being genuinely ‘Old’ – better able to help people with compassion and understanding. When I feel that BLISS, the blessing, the mystery, I can’t stop the tears rolling down my cheeks – its a truly humbling experience!
I am a post-war “baby boomer” – born at a time when medical drugs were still the wonder of the world. My pregnant mother was prescribed the teratogenic drug* (*Of, relating to, or causing malformations of an embryo or a foetus) known as DES (diethylstilbestrol). I am clear that this drug affected my foetal development and left me with undiagnosed long term liver impairment and weak vision. It was an exhausting birth for both of us. I seemed to be OK, and they all said I was a very ‘good’ baby – no wonder, I didn’t have the strength to make a fuss!
When I was a few months old, grandma died at a young age, and mother’s idyllic existence with me ended abruptly. In her grief she no longer breast fed me, and instead gave me the standard baby diet of cow’s milk, sugar-laden Farleys Rusks, infant aspirin, cough syrup, ‘milk of magnesia’ antibiotics and smothered my sensitive skin in ‘calamine lotion’. (Now known to have contained unsafe levels of mercury).
It was the late 1940s. Although the war was over, Family friends and neighbours still lived in the emotionally traumatic aftermath. Growing up in our middle class semi, I remember playing in bombed out factories and building sites near to our home. Mum was out working all hours, dad travelled away most of the time, and mum and dad seemed to be arguing a lot. A young girl who had been orphaned in the war came to stay with us to help Mummy. We called her our Nanny. She truly loved us and picked up the pieces, but she couldn’t replace our Mummy: nothing like! Nevertheless, when she left to have her own children it felt as if the bottom had fallen out of the world.
The stage was set
Physical and emotional problems flourished. “Bilious attacks”- stomach upsets, nightmares, ear infections, headaches and migraines blighted my life. Impossible to enjoy a normal active life: what was going wrong?
So many childhood days spent languishing in a cool, darkened room, having a “migraine”, away from family friends and school! I was often too sick to eat, highly sensitive to smell, sound, temperature and movement. I just hated being out in the countryside or by the sea – too wild, too raw, toooo – dangerous. I was just a scaredy cat.
When I felt well, and back in life, I was an outsider looking in, having missed so much that others had experienced.
But it was not all bad news. During those dark hours, days and weeks, something grew in me. I got closer to my own truth, and could feel and sense the truth of others; – a ‘special’ kind of gift began to unfold. A gift that would set me apart from others my own age, and get me the nickname “Grandma”.
I saw through the hollow, superficial appearances and ‘acts’ that people put on. I felt their unexpressed pain, needs and drives, their anger, sadness and fear, their jealousy, grief and longings. I heard their unspoken pleas. I desperately wanted to share my insights to help people. I had to live with the frustration of knowing and feeling, but remaining silent, for many more years.
Little Gay is now “Gabi,” a teenage mass of upsets, fatigue and pain. My digestion was a mess, I had irresistible cravings for sugar and stodgy food, and I could not bear the taste of ordinary water or raw vegetables. Whenever faced with a challenge, painful swelling and inflammation would attack my gums making it hard to speak or eat; boils, chilblains, cold sores and mouth ulcers plagued me. Migraine headaches controlled me for 20 days a month. Areas of my body that were not in pain were numb, and although desperate to be loved and held, I could not bear the sensation of being touched. Worse still, being ‘holier than thou’, intolerant of others and especially myself, I dragged myself around, miserable, depressed and lonely! How could I help anyone?
Finding nothing really wrong with me, (its psychosomatic dear) doctors prescribed pain killing drugs. Having no alternative I took them, but soon realised that rather than relieving my suffering, these migraine pills and ‘innocuous’ over the counter medications and just prolonged it, and left me weak and foggy, until the next bout claimed me. Unable to accept any more help from conventional medicine, I knew that I would have to find my own solutions, so I turned to learning and books.
How I fixed it
Fascinated by what moves and motivates people I was agog to find the answers. Study was one thing I could succeed at on ‘good’ days. I got my BA Hons degree in Sociology and Anthropology, my postgrad in Adult Education. I eventually qualified in many branches of Self Work and Alternative Medicine including Nutritional Therapy, Spiritual Healing, Massage, Bodywork, Lifestyle Coaching, Tai Chi and uniting it all – Naturopathy. These were each courses of between 1 year and 7 years. I do have a lot of certificates on my clinic wall from a lifetime of learning!
Still not completely happy with my own state of health and feeling isolated and lonely, I turned to counsellors and psychotherapists. They tried, through many hours sitting in a room, skirting around the ‘hidden nasty stuff’ to loosen the baggage that I sensed was making my life such hell. I felt much worse! I was tired of going round and round the outside; I needed to get to the core of it. And get to the core I did!!
Acupuncture, herbal medicine, osteopathy, homeopathy gave some temporary relief. Holistic dentistry stopped me swallowing poison, detoxification, fasting and colonic hydrotherapy uplifted my energy, meditation helped me love and be happy.
My first taste of feeling great came through Naturopathy, – cleansing detoxifications, Nutritional Therapy and Emotional Release helped by Dr Shyam Singha, and by James Sangeetam Holland, Tai Chi Master, Bodywork Therapist and Integral Healer.
Meditating into my inner body, feeling it all in the present moment empowered me to face and take ownership of my state, face my physical and emotional pain and transform it all: – this was BLISS! – looking down through crystal clear sky from a mountain top, no longer in the deep well of gloom!
Those results inspired me to envision what I had never dared to hope for; that this woman could create an enjoyable and fulfilled life. But how?
Was it my passionate search that miraculously led me on my 12 year adventure? Or was it pure serendipity?
One day I was teaching reluctant teenage youths at Adult Education Colleges in East London, the next I was at the feet of the modern mystic Osho. Moving on to his International Ashram in Poona, India – a controversial initiative to bridge the spirituality of East and West that came to be at the leading edge of personal and spiritual developmental research. Osho the modern day mystic who began it, called it a ‘Mystery School’. I knew nothing of that; It was my playground to practice my witnessing awareness meditation through hours of work, challenge and fun, day and night. (Nowadays its called Mindfulness)
What an honour, after my intellectual attempts to edit his books, my near death experience through liver disease, to be given the public toilets throughout the ashram to clean as my meditation!
My mantra was ‘YES’. This magic word was my initiation to clarity, spaciousness and pleasure. I learned how to enjoy being conscious in this present moment – the Now.
At last I was being ME in my own movie! And yet I was still suffering with migraine and digestive problems.
The solution being shared here is that through all the dreary, dark days, the laughter and the bliss, this secret knowledge has stood the test of time. Deep within pain and suffering I have found my own golden nuggets, incredible portals to health and happiness!
My passion is to make knowledge of these secrets available to everyone; I speak to you – if your life is a living hell, like mine was, and to you if you love your life and want to ensure a future that is hale and hearty, crowned with a conscious death.
Can this work for Me?
Most of my massage and nutrition clients came to me after being written off by conventional medicine and were resigned to living ‘lives of quiet desperation’.
Studying my clients over many years revealed the hidden factors driving that suffering, sickness and waste of life – all approaches from drugs to therapy had failed, doctors’ best efforts were ineffective, WHY?
Emotions and mindset
Skeletons in the cupboard, secrets, fears and phobias, resentment and blame, anger, guilt, humiliation and shame, remorse and grief lay unaddressed, embedded (‘somatised’) inside tissues of the body, developing into stubborn health conditions like IBS, frozen shoulder, arthritis, migraine headaches, skin problems, chronic muscular pain, fibromyalgia and a whole raft of physical and social disabilities.
Dealt with that….
Incredibly, people who claimed that they had ‘done a lot of work’ on themselves were still full of pain and sickness from feelings they said they didn’t have any more - “I have already dealt with that” “I don’t go there”……….I just kept on saying “Don’t give up, there is something you can do”
Mahatma Ghandi said….”Be the Change you want to See”
Once I had learned how to change my own daily reality to BLISS, I created BLISS NATUROPATHY for people to access practical pathways to health and the magic of personal development.
Some of my favourite transformational methods
Relaxing and instant meditation *My own Instant Bliss MP3, Focussed healing intention on my inner body, Dance, Walking, Tai Chi, Yoga , Enjoying my food and drink whatever I might be eating, Visualisation, Sunshine and breathing Fresh Air, Deep bodywork to unburden my toxic emotional baggage and give me a free flowing strong body, Passion for my work, Love and compassion for myself, Feeling what is really going on in the moment, Releasing as I go along, Reminding myself “Be Here Now!”
The spark that lights my fire is sharing the tools for natural health and spiritual peace on earth that have consistently benefited me over the years. My mission is for YOU to benefit from my journey whatever your time of life!
That’s my way of bringing the planet and the human race into the present moment and out of doom and gloom!
- Postgraduate Diploma in Naturopathy (ND) in 1999 from the London College of Naturopathic Medicine and Health Science
- BA Hons in Sociology and Anthropology, Certificate in [Adult] Education, Diploma from the Institute for Optimum Nutrition (Dip ION) Wellbeing Lifestyle Educator, Teacher training in Tai Chi and Chi Kung, Integral Healing Bodywork, NFSH Spiritual Healing, ITEC, International Therapy Examination Council, Massage Practitioner
- RSA: Royal Society of Medicine
- BCMA: British Complementary Medical Association
- FHIT: Fellowship of Integrated Holistic Therapists
- NFSH: National Federation of Spiritual Healers
- NNA: Naturopathic Nutrition Association
Now that I truly love the life I’m living……. there is so much to share.